Realizations sometimes really suck

Do you ever have one of those moments that’s just like being struck by lightning, or you’ve been in a dark cave for ages and you finally found your way to the surface and that strong beam of light is blinding you with the clarity of direction?

Yeah, had me one of those.

See, I got me a lotta issues (which I’m sure you might be able to determine for yourself if you’ve read anything of this blog for any length of time) and working through them is hard. Doubly so when you know you need a therapist, but they cost an arm and a leg, and you’re already down a limb and a half covering your regular expenses.  ...

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And So the World Ended – short story

And so the world ended.

None who live today recall how it happened, or even that it happened. Therein lies the curious notion of ‘the end of the world’. How arrogant to assume the world ends when it is merely a world that ends. Another grows to replace it. Nature creeps back in to reassert herself in regions where she had been squashed. Once vast and shining cities crumbled. Monuments to the existence of those who built that ‘world’ now either stand completely concealed in vegetation, or have been reclaimed entirely by the earth.

The people who lived here have passed out of the memory of most all who have taken up residence.  ...

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Ring Fit, Physical Health, and Mental Health

I bought Ring Fit Adventure a couple of days ago, and immediately after, I had a serious mood crash where I just didn’t want to do a god damned thing. I ate only once that day (dinner) and then went almost immediately to bed. It SUCKED, but worse than that, I was beginning to fall into the trap I was afraid I would. I bought Ring Fit in spite of my concern that I would rarely use it, if at all, and it would end up collecting dust on a shelf somewhere, money completely wasted. Tuesday felt like a confirmation of that.  ...

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Recontextualizing

I’ve been dealing with a lot of self-doubt and shit like that this year. The pandemic hasn’t helped. Nor has our shit-lord of a president or his cronies and the extraordinary douchebags that support him.

I’ve questioned whether or not I belong anywhere, if my “skills” are really worthwhile, if maybe it would have been better if I hadn’t been born. Just your typical crisis of identity and purpose. You know… Tuesday.

And then I came across something on Twitter that really made me stop and think.

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If you aren’t in support of the protesters, if you support the cops, you are not welcome on this site. Unfollow me. Do not buy my books. Do not read my stories. Go away. Stay out of my life, out of my social media feed, and out of my society.  ...

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Birth Stones

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It is a common practice when buying jewelry for someone special in your life for it to contain a precious stone of some sort, and often that stone portends to the month that special someone was born in, their birth stone. In this case, Seg had spent a good while figuring out the setting for this piece of jewelry, but knew exactly what kind of stone to put in it. It didn’t have anything to do with what month Smokey had been born in, but rather would stand to symbolize his presence along the big gator’s waistline once he was in.  ...

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Just Breathe

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Rachael had been dealing with a lot of crap at her work. You have some intense times when you run a huge, magical library/warehouse filled with mystical artifacts of all sorts. She wanted to go to the beach and she wasn’t going to go alone. Bobert meanwhile was feeling lazy and wanting to stay inside where there was air conditioning. Good thing the big tiger lady had all sorts of ways to entice her boyfriend to join her.

This is a commission for Bobert Ottah, not specifically a sequel to “Drink Responsibly” but certainly related since it’s the same characters.  ...

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Gumroad account!

I’ve opened a page over on gumroad where you can buy my amazon stories! (only two are available at the moment, it’s gonna take time to get everything posted there)

You don’t need to buy SOLELY from Amazon anymore! You don’t need to buy direct from me through Ko-Fi anymore! You can go there instead! Their rules about what is considered “pornography” vs. “adult content” mean I can post my stories there! Woot!  ...

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Stage Magic – Santa Vaca Book 2

Cover by Violet Cannon

The artist has elected to not post.

This story and the artist’s account contain adult content.
18+ YEARS OLD ONLY PLEASE.

After a lengthy gap in publication, I’ve gotten something written at long last! We get to see a slightly different view of the city, showing its more Vegas-like side.

You can buy on Amazon and Gumroad right now! Only $3.99

You can also check out my author profile on Amazon to see the rest of my library. Don’t want to buy on Amazon? I can’t blame you! You can buy me a coffee over on Ko-Fi and I’ll email you a copy!  ...

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Furry Fiesta post-con report

I’m writing this having just gotten home after attending Texas Furry Fiesta 2020 in Dallas (I live in Dallas, so I’m local, makes it super easy to attend). I feel like I need to get this off my chest in some fashion other than just talking about it piecemeal to various individuals online. There are things in this that are kind of embarrassing for me to share because I don’t want people to look at me like I’m a danger to myself or I require constant sympathy or everyone has to constantly try to keep me engaged and entertained or whatever.  ...

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New (sort of) story

Rather than publishing this somewhere, I decided this particular one will stay here on this site. There’s no paywall, no monetization, nothing… because it’s fanfiction and I don’t want to get sued by a very litigious property holder.

Anyway, for those of you who might be interested in something that isn’t kinky or sexual, but still has some adult themes (violence, death, loss, things of that nature), this is but chapter one and I intend to continue posting chapters until I’ve got the whole novel-length thing posted.

Chapter 1 – A Hero Falls  ...

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Saturday Ramble

Warning: this is not a happy post. It contains subjects that some might find triggering or upsetting. This is just a kind of stream of consciousness kind of ramble so there’s no real structure to it. Feel free to ignore.

Apparently, my sense of self-worth is really damn fragile. I mean, I kind of already knew this. Five minutes around my dad and I’m doing my impression of that emo kid on livejournal listening to Evanescence all the time talking about how dark and awful the world is. But today it only took one brief interaction to make me hate myself all over again.  ...

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Finding Courage

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Long ago, before she met a certain blue dragon and helped him build a certain treetop resort, Shayna had something of a different life. She wasn’t as quick to trust. She had been hurt several times and developed a certain preference when it came to the company she kept. An elf by the name Ellissa had caught her eye and she found it impossible to stay away, even when her family did not approve of her consorting with a dragon.  ...

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Where has Smokey been?

The short answer: working.

I’ve been working my ass off at this new job. Normally, I get off around 5 pm so I can go home. However, there have been a few days where I end up staying late. Sometimes, it’s only a half hour, which isn’t bad. Sometimes it runs later, like until 6 pm. And on the rare occasion, I end up not being able to get away until 7 pm. That SUPER sucks. Especially since my commute, when traffic is cooperative, is at least half an hour. That can go as high as an hour or more if traffic really wants to get nasty.  ...

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State of the Dragon

For the last month, I’ve been working a new job that I started back on the 3rd of September. I’ve been trying to get used to the schedule but it’s tricky. I have to leave the house early enough to get to work on time in spite of the awful traffic, and then the traffic on the way back is twice as bad. And in order to get up early enough in the morning, I have to get to bed fairly early. This means I have only so much time to myself after work. It’s frustrating not having but a few hours that I can spend however I might, especially since I have to dedicate no small part of it to things that I have to take care of.  ...

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September Hiatus

Hey folks! If you’re a patron over on my Patreon campaign, then you’ve already heard this but I probably should put it here too.

I’m taking a hiatus from writing for the month of September. I failed to get anything published on Amazon for August, and I’ll probably not be publishing anything in September either. Don’t worry, I’m okay. I’m doing pretty good in fact, because I finally got me a job!

I was starting to run into the burnout problem with my writing in August, partly because my parents keep invading with virtually no warning, and that’s only going to get worse as the house they’re building gets closer and closer to completion.  ...

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Promised Landing

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Smokey ends up the subject of an experiment being run by Shayna, Liz, Jia, and Celeste–basically, the biggest, heaviest hitting magic users in the Inn. They were intrigued by what happened with Smokey and Shayna, specifically with Shayna’s otter twins and how they leaped from her to Smokey by leaving her predscape and entering Smokey’s. Since Liz is involved, and things don’t go quite to plan, things end up driving into the realm of excess.

…poor Smokey…

So, this was supposed to be a relatively short little fic… and then it kinda blew up a bit.  ...

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